April, 2003

Several weeks ago you had so many visitors. There were 19 people who came in one day. Mr. Nemeth, the soccer and basketball coach and his family. The DeRosa’s and family, your 2 great Aunt’s and cousins and Aunt’s and Uncle’s. You did so well and stayed awake the entire time. The two little girls sang Jesus loves you this I know, cause the Bible tells me so. Yes, Jesus loves me, yes Jesus loves me. They were so cute Aaron.

Your sister’s birthday is next month and I don’t know what to do for her. She is going to be 24. Beth is taking her to Atlantic City where she is staying at the Taj Mahal and going to see Sheryl Crow. She is so lucky to have such a good friend and I pray their friendship lasts forever.

Wednesday is going to be a very important day for me. I am taking your cat scan to Children’s Specialized in Mountainside so Dr. Yalamanchi can compare the new one to the one taken in October. I hope to see Sally, Lauren and Stephanie while I am there. Lauren emailed me not too long ago to ask how you were doing. You were very special to all of them and they had hoped with all their hearts they could have done more.

Well, Wednesday is here and I will be meeting with Dr. Y. It was as I had expected and that is a wait and see. He said you may never be able care for yourself or walk or talk, but I don’t believe that. In my heart I truly believe you are giving yourself the time you need to heal. I pray for that day so much. I know you will never be the same but I think you can find your way back to us and some function of life. I saw Sally and Lauren and they were asking about you, I bought pictures with me and they took some for their wall.

Your new wheelchair has arrived and I must say you are so much more comfortable and relax much more than before. It is fire engine red and has a head strap to help keep your head up. Sometimes you are fine without it and others, especially when you are tired you fall forward.

I am noticing you are more alert and seem to be understanding more. You smile all the time and are eating very well for me. Your friends are coming more and they have enjoyed their visits with you so much. Some have heard you make sounds and squeeze their hands and look at them when they talk to you. More and more are coming to see you and they come back more often. They want you to do the walk for graduation but I don’t think that is possible. The only way I can do that is if you tell me you want to. If you can do that I will have you there in a heartbeat.