April, 2003

Tomorrow is our big day with Liz and Gregg, I am so excited we are all going to be together but more importantly is where we are taking you. Today you will meet Roland who is a spiritual man who specializes in the mind and body connection. He spent one hour with you today and you were very responsive. He touched you and prayed for you and told you to fight hard and focus. You are already showing signs of improvement with the physical movement in your right arm. I believe you are more aware and will one day soon be with us. Roland told me that you see more than we think you do, I believe him and when we go to see the retna specialist on the 5th of May we will get some good news. Roland also said you are in no pain and that made me feel so much better. I am going to do whatever I can to get you there as often as possible. I believe he can help you Aaron.

You and Gregg had a great day together, after Roland’s we took you both for haircuts and then to Uncle Fred’s deli for lunch. PopPop and Grandma came to see you and you were so content and calm and smiled. They are great people and we are so blessed that our paths have crossed. I do believe you and Gregg will be good friends one day and will impact each other in a very positive way. I pray you will recover from this accident and you will have a quality of life you can be proud of and hopefully one day have a family of your own.

Today, I am making plans for a party for you at the center. One I believe will celebrate your life with all the people who truly care about you and at the same time we will have a salute to the class of 2003. I pray you will be awake to share in this special occasion and you will come to know how truly loved you are and how many friends have come to be with you. The center is doing the decorating and PopPop’s friend is playing music. Uncle Fred and Aun’t Nancy are going to cater it and we all know how great a cook they are.

Easter weekend is here and we are spending Saturday morning picking up the van and visiting with Grandma Jane. We arrived at the center about noon and Daddy followed and we got you home around 2. You were so good and friends came to visit. Andy D’Amico and Sarah Guenther and Debbie. Rob came with Jennine and you stayed up until late Saturday night. Barbara came and visited and the was great until we had to lift you out of the chair. Dad lost it and said we were never doing this again. But you know me Aaron, I take everything in stride and knew you were going to be okay. Worse came to worse we lifted you from the chair to the bed. One of the best things I could have done was to buy a Aero bed and replace the sofa bed mattress with that. It worked well and you slept like a rock. Barbara and Pat came over and they helped lift you in the chair and we went to Uncle Fred’s for Easter. There were about 30 people and we had a lot of fun. The weather was great and you sat on the deck for a while and enjoyed all your cousins and the rest of your family. One thing I forgot to mention was “Charlie” he was so cute when we got you home. He smelled you and ran to the couch, jumped up on the arm of the couch and cried because he could not reach you to give you a kiss. And of course Melissa especially enjoyed you being home because she got you all to herself.

I don’t know when we will get you home again Aaron but I will try my best, even for just a day. I noticed an improvement with you that warms my heart. I truly believe you are more alert and are more aware of your surroundings. You seem to understand more and even though you cannot speak I feel the connection. I can’t even imagine what it must be like for you to hear me and see me but not be able to talk to me. The center is concerned about your need to chomp down and naw at your hand. You are biting the inside of your mouth and causing it to bleed and get raw. Now I find out they are putting you on Valium. I must say all these drugs are making me nervous but they assure me that it is a very mild dose, just enough to take off the edge. I have to believe their right and it is the best thing for you. But make no mistake I will be watching closely to make sure it does not become excessive. If this is any indication that you are moving towards the next level than so be it, that to me is a good thing. I, more so than anyone do not want you to harm yourself and so if the valium will help you to not do that than so be it.