July 13,2007

Today is Friday, July 13th and it is PopPop’s 85th birthday. I will not be seeing him today, we will be celebrating next weekend. I was hoping to bring you with us but they are not going until 6 pm and that will be too late.

I am leaving today at 2 to go to Andrea’s house for the weekend. I am really looking forward to the time spent with her and enjoying the change of pace and to be able to let go just a little bit. She is having a party for her Aunt on Saturday and we will be very busy but it will be a fun kind of busy. It will help me to forget for a short time and focus on other things. I will not know any one but I am sure I will be very comfortable and enjoy myself.

Andrea has a beautiful home on the water, in the morning when I got up I would sit outside and the water was very still and the scenery was breath-taking. There was such peacefulness and calm that was so soothing. I thought about you often and how much you would have enjoyed being there. I could see you crabbing and jumping off the dock. You always did have a good time wherever you went. I will never forget the time over Sally’s when you went jet skiing and the jet ski sunk. I was cracking up and you were so mad because you had to come back to the dock.

On Sunday, Andrea and I went to her church and I must say I enjoyed it very much. There was a lot of singing and a sermon and of course I cried. I always do in church. I may find a church by me and try it to see if I like it better.

I can’t help but wonder sometimes where you would be today, would you have finished college and what would your major have been. Would you still be part of the church youth group and would you be living at home. All these thoughts that really don’t matter, what matters is today and making sure you have everything you need. That your life as it is will be filled with love and compassion. That you will stay healthy and strong and continue to fight hard whatever comes your way.